| Monday, June 18th, 2007 |
| 7:54 pm |
been awhil
So its been awhile since i have written here and as long as its been not to much has changed other than I am at home and Zack is here with me and I am working again but soon i am going camping with zack and that will be a very nice vacation from work and family but other than that not to much is going on Current Mood:  bored |
| Monday, March 26th, 2007 |
| 6:13 pm |
Ok so nothing has really happened I am just in an a very good mood. I think that its the weather. Its so F*#@ing nice out I just don't want to go to class. But everything is great. Current Mood:  cheerful |
| Monday, March 19th, 2007 |
| 10:37 am |
??
Is it better to have a good relationship or to be single and fit in with all your friends? Not having some one does that make you fit in? Current Mood:  confused |
| Wednesday, December 6th, 2006 |
| 11:24 pm |
Life is okay I guess just so much to do and think about before I am able to relax Current Mood:  restless |
| Wednesday, November 1st, 2006 |
| 7:23 pm |
??????????????
Nothing really to report for today or the last few days. Yesterday on Halloween Zack and I went and to see Saw III it was so cool i loved it although i did miss Sleepy Hallow at Amanda and Jen's but that's ok I got to be with Zack. And to day not much went on today just the same old stuff and that's about it well maybe over the next few days i'll have more to write bout for now not much see everyone later bye Current Mood: calmCurrent Music: Random things |
| Monday, October 30th, 2006 |
| 3:57 pm |
This Weekend
So this weekend went ok Friday-went pretty normal i didn't do much other than clean my room and got booze for zack because he had his unofficial "cast party" After which he went to the play and then steve and i went to pick up my little brother cause he came to watch the football game at fsu this weekend. Steve Frank and I finally got back to the dorms at about 1:30 which brings us into saturday. at about 2am i got a phone call the zack was sick so i left to go pick him up at the cast party, only to find him almost pasted out and puking so i was at least able to get him to a friend house and stay up with him all night so nothing happened then at 10:30 am Saturday morning I finally got him back to the dorms and got to my room just in time for my brother to wake up and want to go get breakfast or at least something to eat so i went to get him something and to park my car in the right lot so i went on with the rest of the day then my mom and dad come to see zack in the play at 8 pm saturday and then after the play i came back to my room and took a shower and crashed at like 12:30 am Sunday which that is 37 1/2 hours up straight Sunday i slept really late til 11:30 or so then i took zack to lunch and then him steve and i went to the store to get a few things then it was off to zack's play for the 3rd time and after that i came back to my room and did some homework then zack got back and we watched texas chainsaw Mas. About then i saw amanda for a few minutes and then went to bed and that was my uneventful but very interesting and busy weekend Current Mood:  exhaustedCurrent Music: Andy Griggs: She's More |
| Wednesday, October 25th, 2006 |
| 11:15 am |
Ok so its been like a week since my last entry and not much has happened. Its the week of the play that Zack is in and so he's a little stressed because of all the practices and late nights with it. But he'll be fine and do an absolute wonderful job ( I love him)I have also been a little on edge and stressed with some of my classes. Its hard some times to just sit down and write a paper of do translations for spanish because I really want to just hang out with jen, amanda, Zack, and steve. I wish none of us had half the work that we do so we could hang out together more. But oh well I am sure we'll be able to hang out soon enough. My little brother is coming up to visit FSU this weekend which will be very interesting, But he's been here before so its really not that much of a big deal. Well that is pretty much all that is going on and that I am thinking. I know- I need more things to fill out my day. But I am in a good mood and my laundry is done and so is zack's so its a good day and hopefully that won't change because i like being in a good mood well I'll talk to you'll later bye Amanda and Jen I will see you in class have a nice day. ^ ^ ( by the way thats supposed to be a smile) --- Current Mood: cheerfulCurrent Music: Lady Marmalade- with a lot of chicks |
| Tuesday, October 17th, 2006 |
| 6:08 pm |
Ok in my last journal i said that i had the worst 3 days of my life well. Now those are mild to what happened this last weekend. Friday Zack, Steve and i went to my house where everything was normal and happy-go-lucky But then on Saturday things went a little off because i started to morning and right away i had a million things to do but other than that everything went wrong that evening after dinner was over and Mom and Aimee got back from the OSU MSU game things went in the shitter. My Aunt and Dad were waiting for me and told me that on there way home they found my dog gumpy on the road he had been hit by a car and did not survive |
| Wednesday, October 11th, 2006 |
| 12:34 pm |
I have had the absolute worst 3 days in the entire world or well at least my life. I'll write more later. Current Mood:  crappy |
| Tuesday, October 3rd, 2006 |
| 11:21 am |
Demons
Yesterday I did something that i should have done a long time ago. I put to rest a few of my own demons, with some help and now i believe it was for the best. Let me explain for those that are in the dark. This weekend i made the decision to stay at school and hang out and throw rock with some of my best friends here. In the mean time at home a demon showed his face again looking for something that wasn't there. When i heard about this i was upset even though i thought that i got rid of that entire part in my life ( I was wrong) and feelings that I felt in the past came back and i was scared again with what if's. Then i made things appear that really weren't there and saw the entire world with terrible feelings and pain when i shouldn't have but i did. So throw the stuborn and thickheadedness of Zack i talked about things that i should have a long time ago and it made feelings and hurt come out that i thought i got rid of, well i was wrong. And after we talk and my friend explained things that i miss read and she helped me see somethings from anothers point of view and now i know what i have to do and even if that means just talking about my feelings which i am not really used to, but for anything thing to get better i need to work though it with the help of friends and Zack because now i know that i have people there for me that want to help and that are willing to so i don't have to be so alone in the world. Which is absolutely amazing. Now if my demon comes around again and i'll be ready and now i know that i have someone that stands beside me no matter what. So thank you to all my friends that have been there for me and Jen for being there even when you were somewhat lost( i understand)and to Zack for being wonderful. Thanks guys i love you all! Current Mood: peacefulCurrent Music: Ready to take a chance again-Barry Manilow |
| Friday, September 29th, 2006 |
| 3:18 pm |
Life
Why be here its not worth it, is it? If it is, why is it so hard to fit in? Why can't I just be loved? Why can't I just be liked? Why?... Why?... Why?... Why is it like this? Why do I feel the need to end everything? Why does everything I do mess up? Why am I here? Maybe I am not suppose to be here,but why? Why must I be shunned from all others? Why do I not feel the warmth of love that has trapped me in this darkness.Or maybe is it that I do not want to go but just feel love. Am I to forever to walk in loneliness never knowing the truth But if I never to know the truth...Why do I still feel hope Is hope is what is binding me to this unforgiving world of sorrow and disappointment. So that if I let go of this world and move on to the next you might feel sorrow but I know that your sorrow is not real only a mask that you and others like you show so that people feel sorrow for you for losing such a dear friend but in fact you only do this to make your self feel more important. Maybe no one will morn my passing and my short meaningless life. But no matter where I am to be forever it has to be better than Life Current Mood: numb |
| Thursday, September 28th, 2006 |
| 10:37 am |
Life in general
Wow! Is all I have to say about everything that have been going on since the last time I write. Just to start my roommate backed out on me and now I have a new one that is pretty cool and everything. I started school again which is cool I am on my own again. My sister Aimee is now married to you boyfriend of 4 1/2 years Mike, but enough about family school is where I am having the most fun. I made a new guy friend Scuba Steve as he is know known thanks to me. I have also made two amazing friends Jen and Amanda we have a class together as well so that makes it even more fun. This year so far is nothing that I thought it would be, but from a year ago I am so glad that everything has changed because if things were still the same from then I wouldn't be as happy as I am now. So as this is a reflection from a year ago to now I am glad everything that happened to me happened the bad and especially the good. I would change nothing. Current Mood: contentCurrent Music: Barry Manilow: Memory |
| Monday, August 7th, 2006 |
| 6:24 pm |
Yeah Ya'll not much is going on here just hanging out waiting to get out of work. I am so totally busy this week and its crazy i am getting my hair done tomorrow and have my dress fitting on wednesday for the wedding and then on thursday i have a trail ride and barrel racing time trails and then on friday i have to work at 5 am and my friend faye and her little girl are coming up and then saturday is crunch time for the wedding shower plus another trail ride for me and rosey then sunday is the shower and then monday i pack to go on a trip with JoJo, Mike, Criag, and me which i can't wait till just the 4 of us all hanging out together before i go back to school and have to leave them. But on to bigger things ( and no Mike i am not talking about you or what is in your pants) I am getting ready to go back to school which i got a new roommate so i am excited but other than that not too much is really going on just a bunch of stuff to do and very little time to do it in. well got to go break is over bye love ya all (and don't worry Mike will be on his best behavior on vaca.) Bye jb Current Mood: rushed |
| Monday, July 24th, 2006 |
| 5:30 pm |
Not much is going on just at work and hanging out waiting for that whistle to blow even though its really not a whistle. Not much is going on i can't wait to get away from my sister because she is such a bitch and she is so annoying. She has this idea that i am going to single handle-ly wreak, destroy, and devastate her wedding or rather HER FUCKING DAY but other than that not much is going on here just waiting for time to go by. Current Mood: bored |
| Monday, July 17th, 2006 |
| 2:42 pm |
Hey whats going on not to much here just at work and recovering from my weekend i went to Muskegon to see Zack and go to some races but the races were cancelled due to rain so we went to the rodeo and that was fun then we went back to the hotel and watched speed 2 which i've seen a hundred times. but then on saturday i went home and just hung out and sunday i went to an auctin and that is about it Current Mood: sleepy |
| Monday, July 10th, 2006 |
| 5:47 pm |
Whatever
Wow like nothing has been going on at all. Its been so boring that i worked the fourth of july which was interesting because i worked it all by myself but thats ok because i got time and half but other than that not too much is on just can't wait to go back to school and see all of my friends that i miss like jamie tash and missy well thats all for now i'll write more later see ya Current Mood: bored |
| Saturday, July 1st, 2006 |
| 5:52 pm |
| You Are Catwoman | 
"Life's a bitch. Now so am I." |
Current Mood: excited |
| Monday, June 26th, 2006 |
| 2:56 pm |
Lets go Racin'
Wow what a weekend i did so much Well to start on friday i got up at like 5am to go into work which is just so much fun (not) and then when i got out of work at like 1:30pm i went and help my aunt pick up some things that she bought from an auction. After that my sis Abby and i at 3:30pm and started our trip to Thunderbird Speedway in Muskegon to see my bf race. So we got there at like 7:00pm on the dot and got our tickets and found seats in the front row. At about 8:20 i saw my bf Zack and it turns out that they were not racing to day because they had more sprint cars than expected i guess but i am not sure. So anyways He was like so surprised to see me and i was incredible happy to see him so my sis and i finished watching the races and we were so dirty. I didn't feel like driving home so Abby and i got a hotel and Zack came over and stayed and we had a blast. Abby liked the races and wants to go again. And Zack and i well that's not something ya'll need to know (wink wink). Anyways the next day Abby and i were up bright and early at 10:00am and were off back home and once we got home the both of us ate dinner and helped my mom plant her "garden" after that i returned some phone calls and went to bed. It was a wild and crazy weekend but i enjoyed every minute of it and if given the chance i would keep going to the races every single weekend. Current Mood: excited |
| Saturday, June 24th, 2006 |
| 9:46 am |
hey everyone i am currently at work and not doing to much nothing is really new I am going to go to the beach in like 5 hours after i get out of work with jojo and we are just going to drink Mike's and get a tan but other than that nothing is really going on i'll talk to you all later hope everyones summer is going good Current Mood: excited |
| Wednesday, June 14th, 2006 |
| 5:09 pm |
Wow its been like forever since i have wrote on this so much has happened since the last time i actually wrote on here. So here's the summary of whats been going on. The guy that i wrote about last time and i are still seeing each other and i am sit so happy with him and if you don't know by now that his name is Zack than you need to read this more often. but other than that not to much is really going on just working my days away and getting ready to go to Ohio and go shopping and thats about it. love to you all KISS KISS Current Mood: bored |
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