achoo_05

been awhil

Mon, 18 Jun 2007 23:58:21 GMT

So its been awhile since i have written here and as long as its been not to much has changed other than I am at home and Zack is here with me and I am working again but soon i am going camping with zack and that will be a very nice vacation from work and family but other than that not to much is going on

Mon, 26 Mar 2007 22:18:24 GMT

Ok so nothing has really happened I am just in an a very good mood. I think that its the weather. Its so F*#@ing nice out I just don't want to go to class. But everything is great.

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Mon, 19 Mar 2007 14:39:15 GMT

Is it better to have a good relationship or to be single and fit in with all your friends? Not having some one does that make you fit in?

Thu, 07 Dec 2006 04:24:31 GMT

Life is okay I guess just so much to do and think about before I am able to relax

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Thu, 02 Nov 2006 00:23:28 GMT

Nothing really to report for today or the last few days. Yesterday on Halloween Zack and I went and to see Saw III it was so cool i loved it although i did miss Sleepy Hallow at Amanda and Jen's but that's ok I got to be with Zack. And to day not much went on today just the same old stuff and that's about it well maybe over the next few days i'll have more to write bout for now not much see everyone later bye

This Weekend

Mon, 30 Oct 2006 17:03:41 GMT

So this weekend went ok

Friday-went pretty normal i didn't do much other than clean my room and got booze for zack because he had his unofficial "cast party" After which he went to the play and then steve and i went to pick up my little brother cause he came to watch the football game at fsu this weekend. Steve Frank and I finally got back to the dorms at about 1:30 which brings us into saturday. at about 2am i got a phone call the zack was sick so i left to go pick him up at the cast party, only to find him almost pasted out and puking so i was at least able to get him to a friend house and stay up with him all night so nothing happened then at 10:30 am Saturday morning I finally got him back to the dorms and got to my room just in time for my brother to wake up and want to go get breakfast or at least something to eat so i went to get him something and to park my car in the right lot so i went on with the rest of the day then my mom and dad come to see zack in the play at 8 pm saturday and then after the play i came back to my room and took a shower and crashed at like 12:30 am Sunday which that is 37 1/2 hours up straight Sunday i slept really late til 11:30 or so then i took zack to lunch and then him steve and i went to the store to get a few things then it was off to zack's play for the 3rd time and after that i came back to my room and did some homework then zack got back and we watched texas chainsaw Mas. About then i saw amanda for a few minutes and then went to bed and that was my uneventful but very interesting and busy weekend

Wed, 25 Oct 2006 15:30:31 GMT

Ok so its been like a week since my last entry and not much has happened. Its the week of the play that Zack is in and so he's a little stressed because of all the practices and late nights with it. But he'll be fine and do an absolute wonderful job ( I love him)I have also been a little on edge and stressed with some of my classes. Its hard some times to just sit down and write a paper of do translations for spanish because I really want to just hang out with jen, amanda, Zack, and steve. I wish none of us had half the work that we do so we could hang out together more. But oh well I am sure we'll be able to hang out soon enough.
My little brother is coming up to visit FSU this weekend which will be very interesting, But he's been here before so its really not that much of a big deal. Well that is pretty much all that is going on and that I am thinking. I know- I need more things to fill out my day. But I am in a good mood and my laundry is done and so is zack's so its a good day and hopefully that won't change because i like being in a good mood well I'll talk to you'll later bye

Amanda and Jen I will see you in class have a nice day.

^ ^ ( by the way thats supposed to be a smile)
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Tue, 17 Oct 2006 22:14:19 GMT

Ok in my last journal i said that i had the worst 3 days of my life well. Now those are mild to what happened this last weekend. Friday Zack, Steve and i went to my house where everything was normal and happy-go-lucky But then on Saturday things went a little off because i started to morning and right away i had a million things to do but other than that everything went wrong that evening after dinner was over and Mom and Aimee got back from the OSU MSU game things went in the shitter. My Aunt and Dad were waiting for me and told me that on there way home they found my dog gumpy on the road he had been hit by a car and did not survive

Wed, 11 Oct 2006 16:35:01 GMT

I have had the absolute worst 3 days in the entire world or well at least my life. I'll write more later.

Demons

Tue, 03 Oct 2006 16:12:36 GMT

Yesterday I did something that i should have done a long time ago. I put to rest a few of my own demons, with some help and now i believe it was for the best. Let me explain for those that are in the dark.

This weekend i made the decision to stay at school and hang out and throw rock with some of my best friends here. In the mean time at home a demon showed his face again looking for something that wasn't there. When i heard about this i was upset even though i thought that i got rid of that entire part in my life ( I was wrong) and feelings that I felt in the past came back and i was scared again with what if's. Then i made things appear that really weren't there and saw the entire world with terrible feelings and pain when i shouldn't have but i did. So throw the stuborn and thickheadedness of Zack i talked about things that i should have a long time ago and it made feelings and hurt come out that i thought i got rid of, well i was wrong. And after we talk and my friend explained things that i miss read and she helped me see somethings from anothers point of view and now i know what i have to do and even if that means just talking about my feelings which i am not really used to, but for anything thing to get better i need to work though it with the help of friends and Zack because now i know that i have people there for me that want to help and that are willing to so i don't have to be so alone in the world. Which is absolutely amazing. Now if my demon comes around again and i'll be ready and now i know that i have someone that stands beside me no matter what. So thank you to all my friends that have been there for me and Jen for being there even when you were somewhat lost( i understand)and to Zack for being wonderful.

Thanks guys i love you all!

Life

Fri, 29 Sep 2006 19:22:31 GMT

Why be here its not worth it, is it?
If it is, why is it so hard to fit in?
Why can't I just be loved?
Why can't I just be liked?
Why?... Why?... Why?...
Why is it like this?
Why do I feel the need to end everything?
Why does everything I do mess up?
Why am I here?
Maybe I am not suppose to be here,but why?
Why must I be shunned from all others?
Why do I not feel the warmth of love that has trapped
me in this darkness.Or maybe is it that I do not want to go but just feel love.
Am I to forever to walk in loneliness never knowing the truth
But if I never to know the truth...Why do I still feel hope
Is hope is what is binding me to this unforgiving world of sorrow
and disappointment.
So that if I let go of this world and move on to the next you might
feel sorrow but I know that your sorrow is not real only a mask that
you and others like you show so that people feel sorrow for you for losing
such a dear friend but in fact you only do this to make your self feel more
important.
Maybe no one will morn my passing and my short meaningless life.
But no matter where I am to be forever it has to be better than
Life

Life in general

Thu, 28 Sep 2006 14:38:16 GMT

Wow!

Is all I have to say about everything that have been going on since the last time I write. Just to start my roommate backed out on me and now I have a new one that is pretty cool and everything. I started school again which is cool I am on my own again. My sister Aimee is now married to you boyfriend of 4 1/2 years Mike, but enough about family school is where I am having the most fun. I made a new guy friend Scuba Steve as he is know known thanks to me. I have also made two amazing friends Jen and Amanda we have a class together as well so that makes it even more fun. This year so far is nothing that I thought it would be, but from a year ago I am so glad that everything has changed because if things were still the same from then I wouldn't be as happy as I am now. So as this is a reflection from a year ago to now I am glad everything that happened to me happened the bad and especially the good. I would change nothing.

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 22:32:21 GMT

Yeah Ya'll not much is going on here just hanging out waiting to get out of work. I am so totally busy this week and its crazy i am getting my hair done tomorrow and have my dress fitting on wednesday for the wedding and then on thursday i have a trail ride and barrel racing time trails and then on friday i have to work at 5 am and my friend faye and her little girl are coming up and then saturday is crunch time for the wedding shower plus another trail ride for me and rosey then sunday is the shower and then monday i pack to go on a trip with JoJo, Mike, Criag, and me which i can't wait till just the 4 of us all hanging out together before i go back to school and have to leave them. But on to bigger things ( and no Mike i am not talking about you or what is in your pants) I am getting ready to go back to school which i got a new roommate so i am excited but other than that not too much is really going on just a bunch of stuff to do and very little time to do it in.
well got to go break is over bye love ya all (and don't worry Mike will be on his best behavior on vaca.)

Bye jb

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 21:33:42 GMT

Not much is going on just at work and hanging out waiting for that whistle to blow even though its really not a whistle. Not much is going on i can't wait to get away from my sister because she is such a bitch and she is so annoying. She has this idea that i am going to single handle-ly wreak, destroy, and devastate her wedding or rather HER FUCKING DAY but other than that not much is going on here just waiting for time to go by.

Mon, 17 Jul 2006 18:45:32 GMT

Hey whats going on not to much here just at work and recovering from my weekend i went to Muskegon to see Zack and go to some races but the races were cancelled due to rain so we went to the rodeo and that was fun then we went back to the hotel and watched speed 2 which i've seen a hundred times. but then on saturday i went home and just hung out and sunday i went to an auctin and that is about it

Whatever

Mon, 10 Jul 2006 22:40:01 GMT

Wow like nothing has been going on at all. Its been so boring that i worked the fourth of july which was interesting because i worked it all by myself but thats ok because i got time and half but other than that not too much is on just can't wait to go back to school and see all of my friends that i miss like jamie tash and missy well thats all for now i'll write more later see ya

Sat, 01 Jul 2006 21:50:53 GMT

You Are Catwoman

"Life's a bitch. Now so am I."

What Superheroine Are You?

Lets go Racin'

Mon, 26 Jun 2006 19:14:05 GMT

Wow what a weekend i did so much Well to start on friday i got up at like 5am to go into work which is just so much fun (not) and then when i got out of work at like 1:30pm i went and help my aunt pick up some things that she bought from an auction. After that my sis Abby and i at 3:30pm and started our trip to Thunderbird Speedway in Muskegon to see my bf race. So we got there at like 7:00pm on the dot and got our tickets and found seats in the front row. At about 8:20 i saw my bf Zack and it turns out that they were not racing to day because they had more sprint cars than expected i guess but i am not sure. So anyways He was like so surprised to see me and i was incredible happy to see him so my sis and i finished watching the races and we were so dirty. I didn't feel like driving home so Abby and i got a hotel and Zack came over and stayed and we had a blast. Abby liked the races and wants to go again. And Zack and i well that's not something ya'll need to know (wink wink). Anyways the next day Abby and i were up bright and early at 10:00am and were off back home and once we got home the both of us ate dinner and helped my mom plant her "garden" after that i returned some phone calls and went to bed. It was a wild and crazy weekend but i enjoyed every minute of it and if given the chance i would keep going to the races every single weekend.

Sat, 24 Jun 2006 13:47:17 GMT

hey everyone i am currently at work and not doing to much nothing is really new I am going to go to the beach in like 5 hours after i get out of work with jojo and we are just going to drink Mike's and get a tan but other than that nothing is really going on i'll talk to you all later hope everyones summer is going good

Wed, 14 Jun 2006 21:12:49 GMT

Wow its been like forever since i have wrote on this so much has happened since the last time i actually wrote on here. So here's the summary of whats been going on. The guy that i wrote about last time and i are still seeing each other and i am sit so happy with him and if you don't know by now that his name is Zack than you need to read this more often. but other than that not to much is really going on just working my days away and getting ready to go to Ohio and go shopping and thats about it.

love to you all
KISS KISS

Fri, 17 Mar 2006 20:58:23 GMT

You Are a Soft Kisser

Your kissing style is understated, but effective

You give soft, sweet, and soulful kisses to your special guy

And that's the key: he's got to be special to get your kiss

Because you don't just go around kissing anyone

What's Your Kissing Style?

Fri, 17 Mar 2006 20:15:04 GMT

Your Heart Is Blue

Love is a doing word for you. You know it's love when you treat each other well.
You are a giving lover, but you don't give too much. You expect something in return.

Your flirting style: Friendly

Your lucky first date: Lunch at an outdoor cafe

Your dream lover: Is both generous and selfish

What you bring to relationships: Loyalty

What Color Heart Do You Have?

None

Tue, 21 Feb 2006 19:44:02 GMT

Hey to ya'll its been like a month since the last time I wrote so much has happened and i just don't know where to start well first off i met this guy a couple weeks ago and I am really happy with him. He makes me laugh, and he always seems interested in if somthing is wrong and does whatever he can to fix it. He even brought me flowers once just because which is totally awesome. I also went snowborading with him which was a lot of fun but now my butt hurts(ouch). Anyway so he happened and i got a tattoo finally, my friend Jamie went with me to get it. Classes are going good and thats really about it everyone is still well and I still love having Tashi as a roommate and I also still love to hang out with all my friends well that's about it. I'll try to write more sooner

Life

Sun, 22 Jan 2006 17:43:30 GMT

None

Sun, 22 Jan 2006 17:38:57 GMT

Hey Ya'll its been like forever since i last wrote here and so much has happened but if you know me you already know everything but other that stuff life is been ok and things are going ok besides the fact that my entire life has been ripped apart over the last few weeks. But i am getting though it and my friends are helping me get though it too. well thats about it for right now. have fun